Last week I ran a total of 4 miles and that was on a treadmill.....sounds crazy doesnt it? Most runners I converse with ran all kinds of miles and many ran some fun and fantastic trail races.
I feel left out and deep inside (even though I do have an excuse), I feel like I let myself down in a way. Yeah, I can say my body received a much needed rest as I have been stepping it up a bit in the last month, but my brain thinks I should have done something ....some type of other workout rather than running.
I could have biked or worked out with weights....but instead I just didn't feel like doing anything. It is almost as though I used the surgery excuse to be lazy.
I suppose the recoup was harder than I thought and I needed the rest but how do I convince myself of that.
Somehow it seems I have lost something...perhaps the edge on my training and I guess I fear this week off will set me back in some way. It may be the simple fact that the 50K is coming up real quick and I don't feel ready for it.
It is so difficult to be ready for something you have never done...... I can't predict how I will feel.....wether I can finsh at all. I can only hope I have trained well enough and run smart enough to accomplish the task.
I am running tonite and I suspect I will feel much better after finishing my run and realizing I have not lost anything because of a week with no running. I guess I just have to get that behind me.